Why do you hide so often?
Are you shy?
You glow too brightly for that.
You look lonely.
You also look whole.
How do you manage that?
I want to understand you,
but you keep a part of yourself
I want to know why
you see yourself
as so mysterious
that you only truly show yourself
when you think
the world isn’t watching.
I am fascinated
by the way
you can see the world’s secrets
and yet still keep your own so well.
I look at you and think
I will never stop wondering,
but when you look at me,
I am completely transparent.
You know my thoughts,
you see my secrets,
you listen to all my heartbeats.
But no one could gather
or contain your secrets—
they are scattered among the skies,
and pretending to be predictable,
so much deeper
than anyone could imagine.
I want to know if you are smiling
from your place in the sky,
or if the shooting stars at two a.m.
are actually your tears.
If you travel the world so much,
I want to know if you call one place home.
I want to see the rain and fireworks
from your point of view.
But it is also intriguing
that you keep me wondering.
You never ask questions,
and never answer mine;
you are just there,
And if I have learned anything from you,
it is that I want to love
as you love—
from a gentle corner of the sky,
casting just as much light as is needed,
unveiling the beauty of the dark,
and strong enough to sweep the sea.
Cindy Green is a forest-wandering, poetry-scribbling stargazer with messy notebooks and messy thoughts. Despite her love for all of God’s creation, sunflowers and stars in particular have a way of sneaking into both her writing and her heart (but you won’t hear her complaining about it). She is an amateur sword-wielder with a Highland-dancing warrior spirit who also writes letters to the moon and considers the sky her best friend. A focused daydreamer, organized pack rat, and oblivious observer, she is a self-professing ambivert (or a living contradiction) who deeply feels both the beauty and fallen state of the world. Through her words, she hopes to describe the indescribable and form personal connections with people while reflecting a love for her Savior and a passion for everything she touches.