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@julia Aw, thank you for the offer! I think that since I struggle with sticking with stories that I’m not personally connected to, it would be best for me to draw them from my own experiences. But I really appreciate your willingness to share your ideas with me, so thanks so much! <3

@ariella-newheart Haha, well, I always have had trouble with it too. I try to tell myself that things are not a big deal and I can handle them myself, but God is teaching me that that’s not the case. 😉

@evelyn @cassie-hartfinh @ariella-newheart

Thank you so much guys! Just the fact that you’ve taken time to read and reply is really encouraging, and I think I might cry. xD

I guess taking a break probably is the best thing to do. The only thing is… I dislike the idea because writing is what gives meaning to my otherwise stressful and lonely days of school. Because I can’t stand having work undone, I feel like I have to justify anything I do that isn’t school, and with writing I can do so. Plus, I’m far from losing my passion and vision for it, and when I’m not working on it, I kind of feel like part of me is missing. 😛

But then again, I haven’t made much progress, so in the long run I end up feeling like (as Evelyn said) a failure for wasting time on a project I end up rejecting later. I think I hold myself to a standard so high that there’s no way, at my level of experience, that I can reach it. So I end up ashamed and frustrated by my work because I know it’s not as good as I intended it to be.

One thing I know has helped me through in the past, though, is the characters. When I was writing Forgiving Footprints, I became so attached to Ginger and attuned to his emotions that whenever I got stuck, he actually inspired me. (Sounds weird, but it worked.) The protagonist for the books I was working on in The Alpha Saga is the same way.

The protag of my current WIP isn’t that way at all. I don’t know what it is that set Ginger and Lotro apart (they’re actually almost polar opposites of each other), but I have plans for another project, and the characters seem to have that same connection to me. It really makes me want to switch to that idea, but another part of me is screaming, “Don’t you dare quit another WIP!” I’m afraid whatever the new idea is promising is only going to turn out to be like all the other ones I’ve started and not finished. I don’t want to waste any more time in this cycle, but at the same time, there is  something about certain stories that keeps me attached to them. I just can’t pinpoint what it is.

I guess I’ll continue to take a break for a few more days, and keep praying about it, and then I’ll decide what to do.

Again, thank you! *hands you all pizza and ice cream* Maybe what I really need is to stop trapping myself in a lonely tower and start sharing what I’m working on. Silly of me to find a community of writers and then continue to hide all my projects. xD