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@taylorclogston

I’m sorry.  All of that came across super rude.  And really just proved your point cuz i got all defensive.

I have extreme FOT (fear of trying) so yes I’m scared of getting rejection, and scared of what might come out of somthimg. Fear of the Unknown. It’s just how i am. And with us about to move this is super stressful, because what if no one likes me?  What if they think I’m a weirdo? Should i pretend to be someone im not?

Because in CC i got teased for just being the weird nerdy horse and writer girl.  But do i have a deep love and addiction for horses? And a weird writers brain?  And a strange love for random facts about God’s creation? (Like did you know snails can sleep for 3 years??)   Yes, yes i do.  Cuz that’s how God made me.  If we were all the same we’d be life lifeless robots.

Do i still have FOT? Yes,  but in fighting it.  I’m not letting it control me, and keep me paralyzed from trying anything.  I was scared of calling the place about the internship where we’re moving.  But i still did.  I’m trying.  That’s all i can do right now.  Try.  I’ll try to get crutiques without freaking out that they’ll prove its terrible,  cuz they’re really just trying to help.  If you want to help me ill try to listen.  But if it’s too late i understand.  I did act like a snobby jerk. Will you forgive me?

You only Fail if you Never Try.  FEAR- Face Everytging And Rise