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Liorah

Lorcan scowled at me, then started to laugh, the first time I’d ever seen him do so.

The mixture of startlement and warmth was the same as the first time I’d heard Aydin laugh. My memory flitted back to that time and I smiled, slightly. I didn’t wish those days back, it had been filled with bitter heartbreak and heavy days, but that was one of the few flecks of light in the shadows.

“Jeeney mackers princess,” he got out. “You’re some spastic, hi.”

I honestly didn’t understand him but I deduced that he was making fun of me. I grinned. For some reason, it really didn’t seem to matter. I didn’t care what Lorcan thought of me, his scorn was no threat to me, and he wouldn’t outright attack me.

Even if he was only laughing at me, it made him seem marginally less stressed, and that was a relief.

“I can’t wait to see the day when you’re beaten to the ground. Cause with that high n’ mighty attitude of yours its gonna happen at some point,” he said, still snickering.

That stung, a lot. My smile faded, but I didn’t frown. The heavy bitterness filled me again, and I barely managed to swallow it down before it formed into harsh words. He didn’t know.

“Bless your heart, you’re not wrong,” I said, my words more sad than sharp.

I had been beaten to the ground. Rock bottom had scraped my hands raw and left me stranded and I was still trying to find my way out. The light at the top seemed awfully far away and the walls were so steep. It was still hard to let others come down to me.

I had been crushed into the ground until it felt that everything inside me had shattered and there was nothing left to hold myself up except stubborn pride and endless defiance, weak reeds upon which to lean.

I was so tired of fighting, but I was unfit for anything else. Everything else had fractured a long time ago. I was so tired, period.

I sighed and turned away from Lorcan. He probably wasn’t a bad person at heart, but I was going to snap if I talked to him much longer, and I really didn’t want to do that.

My gaze trailed over the others, taking in the new people. A lot had changed.

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I really want to write Aydin again but not much has changed and he and Liorah can’t see each other and don’t know the other is there, so it’ll have to wait a while.

Also, I’m trying out different ways that Liorah may have matured and I don’t know how any of them are working but this seems to make sense. I’m going to keep messing with that, probably XD