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@h-jones

Aww, thank you, Grace. You’re so, super sweet. Everything you said just gives me warm fuzzies.

I feel the same way, about hope and joy being integral themes of the gospel, and wish I could feel those things right now because I know that the completely miraculous and undeserved love and mercy from God are supposed to make me feel that. Like, it’s true, there are good things God has given us in this life, like friendship, and the ability to appreciate and even create beautiful things.. Just knowing that eternity has all that, minus literally every bad thing ever, makes it really hard to be thankful for the good stuff I do have now. I dunno if my problem is that I’m too selfish to have the right response to God’s love, or if maybe I just don’t even believe it the way I’m supposed to. Or maybe as a finite human, I simply can’t see the big picture, and I’m just supposed to be okay with feeling this way.

Agh, anyway, Thank you so much for praying for me. I appreciate it so, so much. I don’t really know if my train of thought is making any sense, but I think it’s been good for me to articulate this stuff. I’m so sad to hear that things are rough for you too right now and if you ever wanna talk about it here, or over email, I hope you won’t hesitate. Something that was emphasized to me when I was at Bible school in February, was how God can and does use broken people to help broken people. On our own, we can’t fix anything, but God is somehow able to take us with all our flaws and use us for good in other people’s lives.