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So, I started this discussion because a lot of people want to know how it feels to pass out/faint.

For the record, there are many different ways to do this. Stress, medically induced, when you get really freaked out, etc, and for me, I passed out because although my brain was fine, my heart wasn’t doing well. I knew in my head that everything was alright, but my heart didn’t understand.

This is on,y the account of one of the times that I passed out, and this one was while I was sitting in a chair in the hospital, and a nurse was explaining what was going to happen in my upcoming scoliosis surgery.

Without further ado, here is my account of passing out in written form:

My conscious thought was understanding this information, but I guess my heart couldn’t understand why I would need back surgery. I do all the right things. I’m nice, kind, gentle, quiet. <i>That doesn’t matter</i>, my brain says. <i>No one picks this, it just happens.</i>

All of this takes place in about one second, because that’s how fast a brain works.

Fainting is a very weird sensation, because in my experience, you remain conscious. You hear everything that is happening, but you can’t physically move. First, you get sweaty, and you think to yourself, just hold it in for one minute longer.  You can feel it coming, and you can’t do anything about it. There’s no way that you could convince your brain to make sense of it. It’s all just gone all the sudden.

“Is she all right?” The doctor asks.

<i>Yes, I’m fine,</i> I want to reply, but can’t. It’s physically impossible.

Also, there’s the ringing. It all in my head, but there all the more. It makes concentrating hard, but not impossible. Never impossible.

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Hope that helps!

Sincerely,

Sylvie Berg