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I could really use some prayers guys.

I can remember specific instances in my life where it felt like God wanted me to pursue art. It just felt right and I thought this was how God wanted me to serve him. And then, specific instances of going through doubts. Thoughts like, is this really what God wants for me? What if I’m just being selfish? What if this isn’t his best for me? What if it’s a waste of time? completely bombard me. And, in the past, after much prayer I’ve always gotten through those thoughts with a newfound confidence that art is something God wants me to do.

But here I am again.  My biggest fear here is that God is gently trying to tell me he has something else for me, and I’m just to selfish to hear him. I love art, but I’m confidant that if it’s not what God wants for me it will never be fulfilling. Confidant that only God’s best will satisfy me, even if it means letting go of any dreams or hopes for my future.

But on the flip side, if I have gone through these feelings in the past, and gotten to a place of feeling peace, that is is in fact God’s will for me, then why wouldn’t that be the case this time?

I just want God’s will for me, and I don’t want my fears or selfishness to blind me from it. Can you pray that the Holy Spirit would show me the answer once and for all? That I would be open to his will for me, and that if I am supposed to pursue art that I would stop feeling so much doubt?

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