Oh yeah, I can relate. Being the oldest one around stresses me out. I feel like I’m supposed to be the “adult” of the group and that’s just too much pressure for me.
I’m sorry I don’t really have any answers for you. I wish I was wiser. I guess the only thing you can do is keep searching for answers, learning about God, and keeping your focus on him. Focus is a huge thing for me. Kind of like I said before about when I drift, it’s always because I’m not focused on God. It’s in the seasons that I stay focused, and rooted in him that I experience the most spiritual growth and understanding.
"Though I'm not yet who I will be, I'm no longer who I was."